Day 8** Missoula Montana

WHAT A FEW LAST DAYS!!! Yesterday we were trapped in the van for about 8 hours!!! we travelled from Washington, through Idaho, and ended up in Montana. It was a LONG day!!! I don't know what Curt has had to eat the past few days... but whatever it was came out in the van... and it WASN'T pleasant!! Did you know that even when you sleep you pass gas?? YUP!!! Curt proved it true hahaha!! We've been having a blast on the road!! And you know what?? we still all love each other! i know... surprising right? We're really good about sorting out our issues or determining if its something we really need to share or if its just us being stupid. God has really blessed us with a team that just jells. I started to write this yesterday... but i got interrupted by an epic water fight! crazy i know!!! So i am going to continue writing this as if i were still in the yesterday :P
All day i was nervous and uncomfortable... Josh had just told me the night before that i would be preaching at the night service today... and i had NO plans set for what i would talk on. We got to the church and i pretty much paced back and forth outside.... choking back tears because i was stupid enough to listen to the lies that were bombarding my mind. I felt so inadequate and unprepared to speak to a group of mixed generations... what do i have to offer them??? im only 20 and don't have very much life experience!! Somehow i made it up onto the stage... and went on with the night. I was on for playing keys for worship... so i stood up there and worshipped God with tears streaming down my face because as far as i could see... the night was going to be a BIG failure... and i would just end up embarrassing myself in front of a bunch of strangers. We went on with the plan... we performed our skits and drime... and then it was my turn to take over. I can't even try to explain what happened that night.. it was just so strange... and just not what i expected! Its like, as soon as i stepped up there God just kept placing words in my mouth... but i didnt just say them... i FELT what he was saying. I couldn't just stand up there and say.." Ohhh yea.. by the way guys, God loves you and stuff like that." No man, it was like a heart breaking sensation that took place in my heart... and God just poured out his heart and passion through me!!! it was AMAZING!!! I've never felt so free and confident about speaking. Here's the key: it wasn't me. Sure.. it was me standing up on the stage and communicating to people... but it was God speaking through me! He just kept placing analogies and pictures in my head and said share it. the coolest part was... it all flowed and connected perfectly with each other! its like it was all scattered at first... but in the end every little detail wove its way together to form the big picture. At the end i got to pray for a young girl who wanted soooo badly to be anointed with the Holy spirit and receive the gift of tongues!! IT was deffs a night to remember!!! Our team had an AMAZING response and quite a few people signed up to receive more info about our school and programs!!! woooohooooooo!! We spent the night at the church so we played an epic game of volleyball with the girls against the guys and the pastor... sad to say.. the guys won. But my excuse is this: Girls just wanna have fun.. girls just wanna have fun :P BECAUSE we're all outta shape, we had to take NUMEROUS water breaks... which eventually ended up in a MASSIVE water fight... i mean... clothes drenched... floor covered in water... everyone laughing till they hurt. It was EPICLY AWESOME!! the pastor (a friend of Josh's from when they both went to PLBC) decided i would be his main victim.. so he attempted to pour a pitcher of water on me... but then realized i was standing next to the piano... so he decided not to. his excuse was "dont worry i would never do that!" SO, guess what i did!?!? As he went to get the mop to pick up some of the water i filled a pitcher up with water!!! YUP!!!! I drenched that sucker with water!! VICTORY!!! as it poured out and covered him from head to toe i proclaimed "maybe you wouldn't .... but I WOULD!!!" and victory was mine. Here's where it becomes embarrassing tho... apparantly being beat by a girl isnt cool... so he chased after me with a pitcher of water... and i thought i would be safe if i ran to the sanctuary because he said we weren't allowed to go in there if we were having our water fight... so i ran there for cover... BUT HE FOLLOWED ME!!! For some reason i freaked like i've never freaked before... screaming as i ran down the hallway and between church pews... this is where it gets embarrassing... i was soooo scared that I PEED MY PANTS!!! the weird part is that i walked right back to everyone and announced that i peed myself hahaha. The boldness and shamelessness that you gain from being a tour family is unbelievable!!! I was pretty much the laughing stalk for hours... but it was a blast :D how we can go from having heavy and intense gigs to water fights and laughter is crazy.. Thats why i love us and our sillies :)